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Posted on 2010.03.29 at 00:05
its been 3 years.. 3 long years since i've felt this way. it seems really really nice, but at times i do wonder is it worth it to feel this way all over again.

this time round, i've got no clue at all what's happening. is this real? or is this just a one-sided feeling. was the hug i gave just a friendly hug? hey... this is tough. very tough...

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Posted on 2010.03.11 at 00:37
pretty face
one another guy.
the way you look at him,
the way you look at him.
i wanna be just another guy.
scream, sing.
sing, scream.
i will be slow, i have been.
don't put me,
be one of those guys.
hum it nice,
like how she sings.
just leave it, because you never,
wanna be with me.
i wanna be just another guy.

im happy, im sad.
im angry, im a brat.
leave it there, because you never,
wanna be with me.
don't let me be, don't let it be.
i wanna be just another guy.
woooooooooooooooooooooooooh!!!

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Posted on 2007.10.21 at 16:27
i don't wanna be here anymore,
i'm leaving hor.
bye people.

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Posted on 2007.10.20 at 17:00
mood: romantic
Nouvelle Vague - I'll Melt with you

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
Yes I did
What I'm comprehending a race that long gone bye

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

The future's open wide
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you, yeah
I'll stop the world and melt with you
I'll stop the world and melt with you, yeah, yeah

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THIS IS OFFICIAL.

Posted on 2007.10.19 at 12:48
Lavender
Crystal Jade Lavender.


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Posted on 2007.10.16 at 22:14
blind, he is.


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Posted on 2007.10.16 at 22:08
trying to be rebellious. ..







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Posted on 2007.10.14 at 20:46
mood: blankblank
music: Goldfrapp - Black Cherry
ms lavender.

How can it be? I can taste u now
How can I see when you're everything?

All the world in one grain of sand
And I've blown it
All my world in one grain of sand
And u own it

Black cherry, black cherry, stone
Black cherry, black cherry

Hearing u say it, I could die
Trembling star, just reminds me

All the world in one grain of sand
And I've blown it
All my world in one grain of sand
And you own it

Black cherry, black cherry, stone
Black cherry, black cherry

Excite me, ignite me
Oh and you know
I miss u, I kiss u
Oh and you know

Black cherry, black cherry, stone
Black cherry, black cherry

Excite me, ignite me
Oh and you know
I miss u, I kiss u
Oh and you know

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Posted on 2007.10.12 at 12:02
i'm fuckin losing control.....
fuck fuck fuck!

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Posted on 2007.10.11 at 00:44
18th Floor Balcony - Blue October

I Close my eyes
And I smile, knowing that everything's alright
To the core, close that door
Is this happening?

My breath on your head, I'm unaware
That you opened the blind to let the city in
Dark, you held my hand as we stand
Taking in everything

And I knew it from the start
So our arms are opened wide
And your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are on this 18th floor balcony
We're both flying away...

We talked, moms and dads
Family past
Getting to know where we came from
Hearts were on display
Go off to sleep
I can't believe this is happening to us

I raised my hands as if to show you I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
And I'm still so yours for the taking
And that's when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
No words to say, And then you kissed me....

And I knew it from the start
So our arms are opened wide
And your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are on this 18th floor balcony
We're both flying away...

Could you make it snow?...




its so nice to be
in
love.


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Posted on 2007.10.11 at 00:31
music: Hate Me - Blue October
Hate Me - Blue October

(If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If your dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me.)

(”Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon.
I was just calling to see how you ware doing.
You sounded really uptight last night.
It made me a little nervous, and a l... and... well... it made me nervous, it sounded like you were nervous, too.
I just wanted to make sure you were really OK,
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication.
You know I love you, and...
Take care honey
I know you're under a lot of pressure.
See ya. Bye bye”)

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can't believe you actually picked me

[Girl:] Hey Justin! [x12]

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Posted on 2007.10.09 at 17:04
yerp, my life goes on.

now, i'm in London, in a beautiful city, and a fun and interesting school, i'm so gonna make full use of it and make the best out of this.

It's a rainy day today and ye, though it might be a lil gloomy and all, but it's all good.
The recent project that I'm doing is Blind, and i'm covering people that are not blind, but blind. Get where i'm coming from. .

I've got an assignment due tomorrow, and friday.
Hectic, but I'm enjoying it.



i know how i feel,
i miss you.

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Posted on 2007.09.23 at 21:20
i'm not dead people,
don't worry.

i'm just settling down,
at a new place,
a new environment.

and baby,
i'm fine, really fine...

:)

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Posted on 2007.09.02 at 07:12
So...
I went home at 7,
and it got me thinking when i was in the cab.
What do you mean, when you say
"Why did I allow you to upset me again?"

Are you telling me,
you've been faking all these while?
Are you telling me,
I'm actually just a fool?
Are you telling me,
I'm just nothing to you.



Leave me alone,
If you are doing/feeling so.
I promise I won't upset you again,
without my presence.



Or should I just,
not allow you to upset me,
too.

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Posted on 2007.08.21 at 14:26
It was a simple,
"Let's be friends again".
We then met up in the club,
both overjoyed when our eyes met.
Ya, so I'm leaving,
and just like any of my friends,
you said you're gonna miss me.
But the first kiss,
reminded me of how we met all over again.
This wasn't suppose to happen,
but it's something we can't quite explain,
im so in love with you now.
The kisses in the rain,
the never-ending stories we have to tell,
the holding of hands and
wishing i would never have to let go.
I told you I Love You a hundred times,
expect at least a thousand more.

I've never thought leaving would be this hard,
and it gets harder day-by-day.
We acted like kids, when we cry to each other,
wiping each other's tears,
and then a smile that says "Its okay".

Do you know,
I wanna hear from you everyday?
Be the one,
that will be there for you always.
And,
keep calling you to see
if you're sleeping are you dreaming and
if you're dreaming are you dreaming of me.

Hey,
you're fuckin special.


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Posted on 2007.08.19 at 23:57
也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀
很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散

我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光 那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见

那是泪光 那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光 那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见

那是泪光 那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我以为无路后退
反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗
才发现你就是光芒!

有一束光 那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见

那是泪光 那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

光芒
你是光芒

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Posted on 2007.08.12 at 13:46
mood: thirstythirsty
if i could be nice,
if i could be perfect,
if i could be great,
if i could be gorgeous,
if only.
if only i could be the man you want me to be.


i am just Edward, people.

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Posted on 2007.07.27 at 02:52
Hah! Smirk.

Get me another Amsterdam!

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Posted on 2007.07.23 at 15:26
48 days,
6+ weeks.

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i've got a story to tell...

Posted on 2007.07.21 at 13:51
i've got a story to tell...







































hehe.


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